When I was in speech and debate in high school I participated in what was essentially “mock congress” (we just called it Congress). Whenever someone needed to clarify a particular piece of evidence or wording in one of our bills it was called a “point of information.”
Yesterday was a pretty overwhelming day for me in general. I was trying to get our house ready so we could leave for our trip tonight (and I’m almost done with everything!). And I’m pregnant and was particularly hormonal. It was probably not the best time to delve into reading all the birth stories in the Ina May book. Or maybe it was because I was able to connect more. I’m not sure.
Anyway I want to offer a few points of information.
First, this may seem a little out of the ordinary, but I really am more afraid of those proceedures than the birth iteself. After reading all those birth stories yesterday I really think that birth is a natural process that our bodies were designed and equipped to deal with. I first began to think this when my friend Cara wrote this one month after giving birth to her son which she was in labor with for something like three days:
“Giving birth has made me realize that I can do anything. Being in pain and working that hard for that long made any other possible task seem like a piece of cake! I feel so much more confident in myself now. It’s amazing. I’ve never felt like this about myself before.”
I want that feeling. I want to feel victorious and overcome something for once in my life. I especially want that feeling after being so defeated in my first trimester. Cara’s story is definitely not alone either. It was a common thread through all the birth stories I read in the book. I know I can do this and it is really important to me that it is done this way.
Second, I talked to Stephen and he thinks I misinterpreted what he meant. He meant I should ask the questions I need to be able to trust my doctor and if his answers don’t satisfy me then we can go somewhere else. And he wanted me to calm down and stop worrying because my next appointment isn’t for two weeks and there is no point in worrying and getting worked up that whole time. And he thinks I should give my doctors a fair chance to explain themselves and not put all my stock into what I’ve read in these books. Which is fair enough at this point I guess.
So that’s it for now.